My love will last a lifetime - A few verses I've written in a style that is different from what I normally use..

I feel so safe whenever I am with you.
I feel as though my problems cease to exist
when I am in your arms.
When you smile at me
I see the sparkle that starts from your heart
and reaches into the depths of your eyes.

I love everything about you.
I love your smile, I love your eyes,
and the gentle way that you touch me.
I love the way you say my name
and your loving words
when you speak to me.

I have been hurt before,
but you make it seem so small and far away
I seem to forget what I have been through
Just by being with you.
You do not take for granted the love that I give
No matter how easy it could be.

You shine a bright light in my life
where there used to be only darkness in the past
You make me feel loved, wanted, and needed,
and make me feel the way that feels so new
You make me feel the feelings
That I am not used to.

You are the reason that I wake up each morn
with a smile on my face and hope in my heart
my world is a lot happier just coz you’re a part of it.
You seem to reflect in my thoughts,
my words and my deeds,
and I love every moment of it.

I want you to know that I will always love you
for this lifetime until eternity,
and no matter what we go through,
I’ll always be there for you
Today, tomorrow and forever
Till my eyes see, and my heart beats.

Darlin' you're amazing thru n thru... - A song I've written for someone I like a lot.. !!

Darlin’ you’re amazing thru n thru

1. Are you my friend or my lover
This my darlin’ I can’t decipher
All I know is that you make me smile
With you I’ve woven a thread of memories that’s as long as a mile

Chorus
Honey you are awesome in every way
I could sit by your side night and day
Coz all I want to do is keep gazing at you
Darlin’ you’re amazing thru n thru

2. When I look into your eyes, I can see that you care
And just then, it is my soul I want to bare
When you hold me you make me feel complete
The rest of the world becomes obsolete

Chorus
Honey you are awesome in every way
I could sit by your side night and day
Coz all I want to do is keep gazing at you
Darlin’ you’re amazing thru n thru

3. Though I know we’re soon going to part
You will always have a special place in my heart
Cos it’s with you that I’ve felt happiness so pure
There will never be another one like you, of this I’m sure

Chorus
Honey you are awesome in every way
I could sit by your side night and day
Coz all I want to do is keep gazing at you
Darlin’ you’re amazing thru n thru

4. I’ve known you for oh so long
But it’s just today that I’m writing you a song
Because I want you to always remember me
Even after I’m gone, in your heart I want to be

Chorus
Honey you are awesome in every way
I could sit by your side night and day
Coz all I want to do is keep gazing at you
Darlin’ you’re amazing thru n thru

Who am I?

Have you ever wondered what could the answer to this question be?

Last night I randomly picked out a book from my library at home and decided to read the first 20 pages of the book to kill my boredom. I picked up Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder. By the time I reached the fifth page, I was completely absorbed into it. I came across this question "Who are you?" asked to Sophie in an anonymous letter, and couldn't help but ask myself the same.

Who am I? I asked myself, and the very first answer that came to my mind was, "I am Alisha Thomas!" But then, I went on to think, who the hell is Alisha Thomas? It was then that I sat down and began writing the answer to this question and to my own surprise, I could define myself in more than fifty different ways!

Sometimes, out of the blue when we sit down and let random thoughts into our minds, we'd be surprised at how creative we can get, and to what extent we can explore possibilities within ourselves.

Long Days

There have been long days in my life before,

But not a one like this;

So dark, so lonely, so painful n harsh,

That the ones before seem like bliss.

I was sitting in solitude,

And thinking about the past;

Memories that I want to forget,

But in my mind they seem to last.

In anticipation that the sun will shine,

And the darkness pass away;

I wait for you to walk in n smile,

And make my heart sway.

But alas my waiting is all in vain,

'Cause you never come;

I wonder about our love,

And what it has become.

The long day has still not ended,

For I am still waiting;

I'm waiting for you to come,

Come home to my love n back into my life.

Yet each man kills the thing he loves…

Yet each man kills the thing he loves,
By each let this be heard,
Some do it with a bitter look,
Some with a flattering word,
The coward does it with a kiss,
The brave man with a sword!

Some kill their love when they are young,
And some when they are old;
Some strangle with the hands of Lust,
Some with the hands of Gold:
The kindest use a knife, because
The dead so soon grow cold.

Some love too little, some too long,
Some sell, and others buy;
Some do the deed with many tears,
And some without a sigh:
For each man kills the thing he loves,
Yet each man does not die. -- Oscar Wilde

Thus began the final adieu between a man and woman, who once loved, and killed their love for reasons best left alone.

Navneet: Hey Laylaaa, What you doin’?
Layla: Nothin’ much. A friend of mine is getting married n she wanted me to write the words for her Wedding card... so am doin’ that
Navneet: Whoa so you’ve taken up copy consultancy as well eh?
Layla: Nah!
Navneet: By the way, I’m getting married on Nov 25. I have also resigned from this place, my last day here is Oct 31. Can’t take it anymore yaar! And before you ask, no, I haven’t another option yet!
Layla: Wow! Congrats on the marriage front! But how could you quit your job in Oct especially when your getting married in Nov.
Navneet: You know me na... my mind never works in the right direction!
Layla: Never mind... Tell me more bout your to be wife...
Navneet: Lemme send you a picture of her
Layla: Ok
Navneet: M Phil in Literature. Teaches in a college. Is a small town girl.
Layla: Hmmmmm… Whatz important is that you liked her :)
Navneet: Yeah she’s ok. She has no fusses. That’s what matters.
N she comes from a not-well-off yet humble family, so she’d be able to adjust with my folks well. Besides she’s their choice.

Navneet: Pic sent
Layla: Gotcha
Navneet: Got it?
Layla: Yup. Have to open it.
Ok. Saw the pic.
Navneet: She is Lathika
Layla: She sure is very simple. Hmmmm... I just hope you have a long n happy married life :)
Navneet: Thank you
Layla: Is your wedding in Mumbai or Delhi?
Navneet: Delhi
Layla: Anyways… So have you started the job hunt?
Navneet: It’s been going on.
Layla: k... Ever thought of taking a break and writing your book?
Navneet: I may never write
Layla: What nonsense!! It would such a waste of your creativity and talent. Don’t be silly Navneet!!
Navneet: I was never creative; I never will be... Tell me about your bit with writing...where did the dialogues reach?
Layla: dialogues??? I'm doing a thing bout my relationship between Dad n me
Navneet: Your introspection with yourself around your dad. Yupp
Layla: I did quite a bit. But there is still a lotta work that has to go into it, also though I have written it. I don’t find it upto the mark; it needs a lot of refining.
Navneet: Makings of a writer - one is never happy with his or her verse :)
Layla: I need another pair of eyes to eyeball it for me but don't feel confident enough to send it to anyone I know
Navneet: hallucinations is a great teacher
Layla: Uh huh
Navneet: Yeah - mind idly flowing thru the past is one thing; but reliving those moments is the key - reliving the sight, the sound, the smell… etc
Layla: It’s tough and also very personal if you know what I mean. I am mentally prepared to show it to the world but it should go at one stretch. Of course I want to find a way to publish it.
Navneet: focus dear
Layla: am not doing it is just to unburden myself coz that I already have.
Navneet: not on publishing, but getting that thing out on paper
Layla: Oh yeah. I have managed quite a bit.

Navneet: Its time to temper the thought with a form then
Layla: My challenge is different. It’s more to do with how it’s flowing. Also another big confusion is…
Navneet: That’s what form is all about!
Layla: Where should I be descriptive and where should I be short.
Navneet: It’s the flow, the narrative, the style
Navneet: hmmm...tell me, how’s your reading goin’ on?
Layla: Not too well between traveling and meetings I just haven’t had the time.
Navneet: Uh huh!
Layla: I have read two out of the three books you recommended. Read Franz Kafka and George Bernard Shaw. Also read Oscar Wilde's poetry n el, but then haven’t had a chance to start the third book or anything else.
Navneet: Did you read the Ballad of Goal?
Layla: Yes I have
Navneet: Great. You remember that one night when you were in drunken stupor and I recommended this poem to you written by Oscar Wilde. That my dear, is poetry!
Layla: I've read it Sweetheart!!
Navneet: How did you find the work?
Layla: Intense, when I started to read it, after a while, I felt tears flow down my eyes.
Has amazing flow. It’s not typical.
Navneet: "Amazing flow" is a naive assessment, that’s a given with poets na girl.
Layla: It was quite different from most poetry I have read before. I am not too good with assessments... What can I say…?
Navneet: but Laylaaa you’re the most beautiful mind I have come across... or I ever will
Layla: :) that mind is lost
Layla: it got lost some time back
Navneet: Maybe your mind and my creative side would meet somewhere in an alternate world n would start scripting paradise lost part two :)
Layla: But you must write Navneet. It would really be a loss if you didn’t. Just number crunching n commerce is not you. You know that.
Navneet: Maybe I’m too domesticated for hallucinations watching naked moons thru my bathroom window sill
Layla: Well… I dunno what to say
Navneet: :) never mind girl!

Layla: Just remembered a sonnet by EBB. I love her sonnets
Navneet: Ok
Layla: Very romantic! In the literal sense ;)
Navneet: Irshaad
Layla: Wait, I need to copy and paste it
Layla: It’s my all time fav --
Navneet: Ok
Layla: How do I love thee? Let me count the ways.

I love thee to the depth and breadth and height

My soul can reach, when feeling out of sight

For the ends of Being and ideal Grace.

I love thee to the level of everyday's

Most quiet need, by sun and candle-light.

I love thee freely, as men strive for Right;

I love thee purely, as they turn from Praise.

I love thee with the passion put to use

In my old griefs, and with my childhood's faith.

I love thee with a love I seemed to lose

With my lost saints,--I love thee with the breath,

Smiles, tears, of all my life!--and, if

God choose, I shall but love thee better after death.
Navneet: :)
Layla: Why did you smile? What’s going on in your mind?
Navneet: I might have plundered the original recipient of this sonnet!
Navneet: Oye Laylaaa, I need to go!
Layla: Already? I wish I could talk with you for some more time! It always seems too less a time! Navneet: :) Then say something!
Layla: What do I say!
Navneet: We haven’t talked as much in ages, isn’t it?
Layla: :) Yeah both of us have such crazy schedules, so it seems but natural that we don’t have the time to talk.
Navneet: Yeah… so it seems!
Layla: Hmmmmmm… On your way out… read one more sonnet…
Navneet: No… you say something… Forget about the Sonnets…

Layla: Well, I wish I could write stuff like this... L Anyways... Like they say... if wishes were horses then beggars would ride.
Navneet: Don’t say such things girl, it doesn’t suit you.
Layla: Dunno sweetheart... everytime I talk to you... I wish it could go on forever... these conversations are so fulfilling :) I've always loved talking to you
Navneet: So did I girl, so did I. Not so long ago in one of my crazy moments when I told you that I didn’t think I was capable of falling in love all over again till I met you, I meant every word of it. I love you, and I always will. But like each love of mine, I will have to kill this one too, this time around; it’s just a different reason.
Layla: Yeah… I guess ... all good things come to an end... even conversations. But Love, I don’t believe ever ends. One could love a person forever without being with the person. I’ve experienced that… and I think I’m about to embark on one such journey all over again with you. :)
Navneet: You probably are the only person with whom I shared poetry. I mean those random thoughts that were lyrical in texture
Layla: :)
Navneet: Those poems
Layla: :) Hmmmm….
Navneet: somewhere lost in thoughts and time
Layla: yup lost forever too... I don’t think I will share such a relationship again.. A relationship full of words…
Navneet: If you ever dig into the pockets of your overcoat and find small pieces of paper with those poems and lyrics I wrote for you, please save them. They represent the poet in me that only you could bring out.
Layla: Hmmmmm…
Navneet: :) Ours was a post modern romance :)
Layla: Ha ha... I like that term “post modern romance” Indeed…
Anyways… you wanted to get back to work, didn’t you… so carry on! If life dishes out another chance, we’ll catch up again.
Navneet: Yup, this is my last bus too. You won’t find me here waiting for another bus ever again. I don’t think I have the privilege of turning back and coming here anymore.
Layla: Yup!! Good Bye and Good Luck!!!
Navneet: :) Good Bye!!!

Monsoons……. A season closest to my heart

Raindrops keep fallin’ on my head……. Every time I hear this song, childhood memories flood my mind.

Having grown up in Mumbai, where Monsoons are pretty rough and the rainfall is generally heavy, monsoons have always marked special occasions in my life. Whether it was moving to a new class at the beginning of a new academic year, or something as simple as ganging up with friends and dancing in the rain. It’s all been a part of growing up, a part of my life that will always remain close to my heart!!

Memories of bygones, the fun, the laughter, those carefree days, I miss them all, and wonder whether life would ever be the same. I could just dance in the rain with friends, or eat garam garam butthas at Marine Drive with the waves lashing at the rocks and rain drops falling on my head.

Those were the days when simple things gave me pleasure, when small things made me smile. I wonder where it’s lost now. I wonder where it's gone? Amidst ambitions, long working hours, financial needs, future plans, all those beautiful ol’ times seem so far away. Sometimes I sit and wonder, what am I getting at? Why can’t I derive pleasure and happiness from small things in life? Why can’t I just get myself to dance in the rain again, like I used to, for so many years as a kid. Why can’t I relive that anticipation and excitement of going to the next class as I used to when I was younger.

As we grow up, most of us get lost in our daily mundane chores that leave us no time to experience what we used to love the most. We run behind material things without even realizing what we’re probably missing by ignoring the small joys that come our way.

Every time I stand in my balcony and watch the rain, I wonder, what stops me from taking a walk in the rain like I used to. I wonder why I am worried about what people would say. Those little joys that could fill my life with happiness are just around the corner, but something stops me from getting to them, and that something is my own reservations.

Maybe sometime soon, I will chuck those reservations, and just take a walk in the rain like I used to, and have fun like always, and experience the sheer thrill of it, just the same way as I used to as a small child. I will let the monsoons touch my soul like it used to when I was younger and feel the joy of it.

Rain Rain, come my way, and let me play again today!

Broken heart

I wander lonely across fields
Trying to understand the way I feel
It's been a while now since you've gone
But, I still can't describe my woe in words.

Marigolds laughing and dancing
The rushes for forever hugging
Looking at them I wish I could do the same
Only to be reminded, that you've long gone away!

How could you have broken my heart?
How could you have simply walked away?
I thought it was "forever" right from the start!
But I was wrong, O! I was wrong it was never that way!

My trust is spurned n dreams are shattered
Nevertheless, good lessons I've learned!
When you went away there was nothing left to say
Just "Goodbye", and we walked our own ways!

When I see birds singing in the sky
N chirpily telling me to leave the past behind.
The beauty of nature giving me hope
Telling me, no matter what, I can cope!

I reckon n tell myself, "I know its gonna be hard!"
But it's time to move on and get a new start!
There's no use crying over spilled milk
There's no point in lingering over the past!

I know that I'll see you sometime again
But whatever happens and come what may,
I wont make the same mistake
That had caused me so much heartache.

I know I sound pessimistic, I know I sound blue
But lemme tell you one last thing that I gonna do...
Never again will I love someone,
Never again will I give someone the power to hurt me!!!